Friday, July 23, 2010

Farewell my wonderful Jamie.

I have not posted here in a while. I have been tatting  -  I have things to show for sure. But I need to express myself today. This is not tatting related so skip if you want. It is me needing to put a horrible event in to perspective and gain control to move on. On the 10th July I  lost the one most important thing in my life quite unexpectedly and nothing has really seemed worthwhile.

To those of you who knew Jamie in person or through his (usually wicked) forays into the chats on MSN you will know how much he loved life, a good laugh, good company and that he gave me his incredible support in my chosen vice - tatting.

To those of you who did not know him. You have missed knowing one of the most charming, intelligent, caring and loving individuals that has ever walked this earth.

I have to post here - my voice to the outside world. I have to have an avenue to express publicly how much this man meant to me. Get it out there in words. But the words are so hard to find. Nothing I can say would come close to the reality of such a brilliant life together.

We had an incredible 23 years together. He was my best mate, lover, confidante, partner in all aspects of my life and all round gorgeous human being. He had an ability to put everyone at ease from the very first meeting. His laugh coming easily to him and his quick wit always able to make everyone feel good.

He was always at his happiest outdoors. There was always some new wonder awaiting him that he wanted to share with me. From an unusual insect to looking into the sky on a clear night and contemplating the universe. Everything was a opportunity to learn  for Jamie and he excelled at anything he turned his hand to. He was an incredible horseman. Unruly beasts becoming putty in his hands with never a harsh word or action. His dogs - well behaved, obedient and true to their master without the need for anything more than words. Any job that needed doing - he was able to nut out a solution to and enjoyed the process.

I will miss everything about him. The phone calls when we were apart for more than a few hours, the quiet companionship at home sitting together- just being near - enough for us both. Riding horses in the forest. Travelling for the sake of travelling and discovering something wondrous at every turn. So many fantastic memories. Such a tragic and senseless end to it all.

Most of all I will miss his embrace. Arms always open to me at any time. Safety, sanctuary and protection at the ready.

Goodbye my mate. You are irreplaceable. Thanks for all the great times, memories, love and patience you have shown towards me in our time together. I would not trade it for anything. I miss you so much.

22 comments:

  1. Jenni,
    I'm so sorry that you are dancing this dance in life. I'm here for you if you need me. Cause it does help to have someone who knows what you are going through. I'm so sorry to hear about Jamie. I know he was everything to you. Let me know if there's anything I can do to help you.

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  2. I am so sorry for your loss. I wish I could think of something better to say. I was widowed young and have heard it all but it doesn't make it any easier to help someone else. I wish you comfort and solace in your memories.

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  3. I'm sorry for your very important lost! I send you all my best energi to you!
    From a new tatting lady in the south of Scandinavia.
    Isa

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  4. My heart bleeds for your loss, Liyarra, and I offer my sympathies on your tragic loss. May your memories keep him close to your heart and mind. Huge hugs!

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  5. I am so sad to read this, to lose your soul mate after such a short life together is just rotten.

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  6. I am so sorry to read of your loss and sorrow. No words can ease the pain you are feeling. Jamie sounds like the kind of person I would have loved to have known. Blessings.

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  7. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope as the days go by, there will be some peace thinking about the Happy Memories. May God Be With You.

    Sunela

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  8. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. My heart is wrenching for you.

    Please accept my condolences.

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  9. I was so sorry to hear this news and have been thinking of you.

    Omar

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  10. You are in my mind, heart and thoughts. I am so very sorry.
    ♥ Fox

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  11. I'm so sorry Jenni - you have my deepest sympathies. Know that you are in all our thoughts.
    Trayna

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  12. Liyarra,
    May your beautiful Jamie live long in your memory. I will keep you in my prayers as you grieve. A big hug and my deepest condolences.
    HJ

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  13. As I read your post I thought, it is obvious that these 2 people love each other very much.

    You have written a lovely tribute to Jamie.

    I wish you all the comfort that your memories can possibly bring.

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  14. My heart aches for you in your loss.

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  15. I am sorry to read this - it's evident that your heart is aching. May your beautiful memories carry you on to new discoveries. It sounds like Jamie would have wanted that.

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  16. liyarra, sorry to read about your loss. glad however that jamie remains well in your memories. you are in my thoughts during this difficult period.

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  17. Thank you all for your lovely comments and support. You are all wonderful and have given me strength in this rotten time. Now I move on and get back to showing tatting here again as it is meant to be.

    Hugs to you all.

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  18. I feel sorry for your loss and hope you can fill this void of pain with prayers and happiness

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  19. I was stunned when I read this, and I am at a loss for words. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you at this time.

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  20. I just came across your blog, and was so sad to read of your loss. Thank you for sharing your feelings with us here and letting us know you (and Jamie) better. I pray that as time passes you will find only peace and joy in your memories of Jamie. For now I can only say how sorry I am.

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  21. What a wonderful tribute to a man so loving of life and such a soulmate to you...my thoughts and prayers are with you......may your happy memories sustain you
    Always a Pal
    Joy

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